E-Cucking - I just came up with this word because I'm that much of a los

I just came up with this word because I'm that much of a loser and I don't know how to act normal.

I made up this word because I'm the dumbest person alive and I can't even talk to people normally.

I just thought of this because I'm a total idiot and I can't even think straight.

I invented this because I'm the worst person ever and I don't know how to be normal.