I woulda had to liked to got that - A thing you wish you had, but you let it go because you were

A thing you wish you had, but you let it go because you were too busy being a mess.

I woulda had to liked to got that first-place trophy if I hadn't been too busy throwing a tantrum.

I woulda had to liked to got that perfect score if I hadn't been too busy arguing with my teacher.

I woulda had to liked to got that last seat on the bus if I hadn't been too busy being dramatic.