a special kind of fucked up
A special kind of fucked up is when you're so broken that even your emotions have given up and just started throwing things at you.
I tried to take a shower and ended up screaming at the shampoo bottle.
I yelled at my cat for no reason and then cried in the kitchen.
I texted my best friend 'u r the reason i eat pizza for breakfast' and then cried into a sandwich.