a special kind of fucked up
A special kind of fucked up is when you're so messed up that your brain is just like 'why even try anymore?' and you just go with it.
I tried to do my homework and ended up screaming into a pillow.
I cried in the middle of the street because my phone was low on battery.
I texted my crush 'u r the reason i eat pizza for breakfast' and then cried into a burger.